I feel...like im messing things up. or maybe im just really worried because over this break things have gotten better. they've been really great. multiple conversations a day, plans being made, a development de amor ♥ but this one day has brought me such resentment, sadness, anger, and unhappiness. we didnt talk today...and i feel kinda off...kinda...incomplete? ugh! and to think its because of this person...this person who for the longest has been faking...this person who annoys the hell outta me but at the same i love them. plus, the sense of possibility...all the possible events that couldve happened today are now unknown....welcome to the world of what if yet again crystal...all of this because of one decision that was outta my hands. i had no control over it whatsoever.
our ups and downs are held dear and near...hopefully this one occurrence doesnt change things. i dont want you to be mad. i dont want for you to not speak to me.
but at the same time...im scared. i was really upset...and you didnt help...
instead you let your frustration get the best of you...which is why im here now.
i tried to fix it...you didnt grab hold....it fell and shattered to pieces. however, i couldve done better...tried harder...
but i guess i'll just continue on...we'll just continue on? "Mending Will Occur In Time, But Til Then Patience Must Be Set Forth, Until Then The Journey Continues..."
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