My Bestfriend, I Appreciate You

my bestfriend.
we talk about everything
i dont feel the need to hide anything from you
you accept me for me
and for that i appreciate you.

my bestfriend.
you get me...
by just sharing a look we communicate
you always know when something is bothering me
and for that i appreciate you.

my bestfriend.
you like me even though im just about the weirdest person ever
we spend hours on the phone talking about nothing
u lift me up in my times of need
and for that i appreciate you.

melanie otto, thanks for being my bestfriend ♥

Why Are You Faking?

ok so you claim you like me and that im lovable and all this other stuff. yet ypu cant see us in a relationship...why is that? so you've made these acclaims and i respect that. yet when i try to move on u pull me back talking bout im your boo and "goodie baby" stuff. im here thinking that something might happen if i wait...but then i feel that you have the impression that imma wait forever. but please believe that you are wrong because i...am moving on. to a better other. imma keep u on the side but ur no longer my main priority. the fact that ur faking displeases me so...im done. it was fun or whatever but its over. i have other opportunities that are actually willing. payback? you can say that...so be prepared (=

Contemplation of the Broken Hearted

Unwanted Gaze
Judging From Afar
Contemplating The Next Move
Desire...Passionate Longing
But Is It Noticed
No, The Prey Acts As A Predator
Eyes Are Set On Another Prize
Rejection...The Bittersweet Pain
Told To Move On...Is It Possible
Told To move On...Why
Why Not Cherish This
Is It Because It Wasn't Real
Or That It Wasn't Meant To Be
Because If So, A Care Is Not Given
This In Fact Was Factual
Knowledge Was Gained
Appreciation Is Given
But Alas, Good Bye Will Be Said
Prying Foes, Though Annoying, Were Precise
Mending Will Occur In Time
But Til Then Patience Must Be Set Forth
Until Then The Journey Continues...

Though Broken The Parts Are Still There...It Can Be Fixed...my words of wisdom

I'm So Cold (Freestyle To I'm So Hood)

Im So COLD!

Yeah, I Wear This Scarf Around My Face,
And Im Not About To Leave This Place
'Cause This Snow Outside Is A Disgrace

Im So Cold!

And Im Bout To Head Down To That South
Where I Dont Gotta Button Up This Blouse
Yup, Yall Know What Im Talking Bout

I Am So Cold!!!

And If You Feel Me Put Your Hands Up (COLD!)
If You're Stuck Inside...Please Stand Up (COLD!)

And If You're Outside Then You Can Walk It Out
And You're Not Cold,
If You Dont Know What Im Talking Bout

I-I-I-Im So COLD!!!

Formspring (Favorite Questions)

What's the secret to happiness?

If it was a simple secret that created happiness then there wouldn't be any sorrow and misery in the world now would there?

I feel like you're a completely different person than what you portray...am I right? Or maybe not a completely different person but it's like you're hiding...not being completely you.

you're kinda right...you must be really observant because hardly anyone notices that. and its not that im hiding exactly...its more that i just dont share everything and im not as open as others... mind enlightening me with your identity?

Well if that's the case dear then what's your definition or a best friend & give me an example TWIN!! :p by MelanieFalls

well i guess the person ur referring to can be considered a best friend if it wasnt for the attraction. i think ur best friend is someone who u can tell anything to and someone who u no will be real to u. but u have no feelings for them other then "you're like family to me". i think that u and ur person could actually have a good relationship as long as yall dont let other interfere

Do you believe that 'best friends' would be good in a relationship? by MelanieFalls

i think it depends on how long u've been "best friends". the relationship may be to friendly and the lack of attraction may ruin things. at the same time, the comfort may be valued and it could last. but, u also need to really think about whether yall are "best friends" or not

How would you describe your first love and why? and how did it end? by MelanieFalls

i guess i would describe it as comfortable. it was like over time we became best friends. thats part of the reason we broke up. plus, he moved to georgia and long distance just doesnt work

do u think u look good naked?

ur a prime example of the stereotypical ignorance placed on black people (unless ur white then this wud be very awkward and u shud disregard this comment)

I love you? (It's a stetment, with a question mark. lol) by HarMoney

lol i love u too twin ♥

Unwritten (part two)

i guess it wasnt meant to be
my moment of clarity was taken from me.
or maybe...
maybe i need to start a-fresh...a-new
(double meaning)
i wish you understood...
but i cant do it! i just cant!
and its all because of YOU
but who are u exactly
why have u caused me so much trouble
i feel like im nice to everyone
like im constantly working to make everyone happy
i could be mad at you and you wouldnt know
i could hate u oh-so-much and u wouldnt know either
because i dont let you
and i dont no why
does that make me fake?
the true meaning of this...
if u found out would be still b friends
if u found out then i think u would rlly no me
but my supposed bestfriends dont no me
and i dont blame you...i dont let u
or do they?
am i underestimating u?
constantly worrying?
am i insecure?
constantly questioning myself?
do i lack the confidence i once thought i had?
tell me something...have you ever seen me cry?
and not for someone else but for me?
i dont think i've ever done that...
cried outta anger, cried outta pain
for myself
what does this truly mean?
some might say this is rlly deep..but is it rlly?
the me i keep hidden...why do i do that?
someone once asked how could anyone not love me
why this is bother me so much
emotions...rollercoasters.

..
bestfriend where are u?!
i rlly think im brain is screwed up
i laugh when i rlly want to scream
i smile when i rlly want to cry
happy moments...why cant u last long?!
why is my joy always taken away?
what is wrong with me?
why am i not content with wat i have?
i long for YOU...why deny me?
you...this person who i should vent to...
WHERE ARE YOU?
even now...i feel but i dont
why?
my inspiration...once told me not to define myself...its not needed
im confused...
It didnt work...my moment of clarity hasnt come.
but i can wait...but in fear
i fear your opinion, your reactions, your whispers
what was once unwritten is shared with the world
omg...i have done it!
i've given you a part of me
please dont ruin it...please