Contemplation of the Broken Hearted

Unwanted Gaze
Judging From Afar
Contemplating The Next Move
Desire...Passionate Longing
But Is It Noticed
No, The Prey Acts As A Predator
Eyes Are Set On Another Prize
Rejection...The Bittersweet Pain
Told To Move On...Is It Possible
Told To move On...Why
Why Not Cherish This
Is It Because It Wasn't Real
Or That It Wasn't Meant To Be
Because If So, A Care Is Not Given
This In Fact Was Factual
Knowledge Was Gained
Appreciation Is Given
But Alas, Good Bye Will Be Said
Prying Foes, Though Annoying, Were Precise
Mending Will Occur In Time
But Til Then Patience Must Be Set Forth
Until Then The Journey Continues...

Though Broken The Parts Are Still There...It Can Be Fixed...my words of wisdom

I'm So Cold (Freestyle To I'm So Hood)

Im So COLD!

Yeah, I Wear This Scarf Around My Face,
And Im Not About To Leave This Place
'Cause This Snow Outside Is A Disgrace

Im So Cold!

And Im Bout To Head Down To That South
Where I Dont Gotta Button Up This Blouse
Yup, Yall Know What Im Talking Bout

I Am So Cold!!!

And If You Feel Me Put Your Hands Up (COLD!)
If You're Stuck Inside...Please Stand Up (COLD!)

And If You're Outside Then You Can Walk It Out
And You're Not Cold,
If You Dont Know What Im Talking Bout

I-I-I-Im So COLD!!!

Formspring (Favorite Questions)

What's the secret to happiness?

If it was a simple secret that created happiness then there wouldn't be any sorrow and misery in the world now would there?

I feel like you're a completely different person than what you portray...am I right? Or maybe not a completely different person but it's like you're hiding...not being completely you.

you're kinda right...you must be really observant because hardly anyone notices that. and its not that im hiding exactly...its more that i just dont share everything and im not as open as others... mind enlightening me with your identity?

Well if that's the case dear then what's your definition or a best friend & give me an example TWIN!! :p by MelanieFalls

well i guess the person ur referring to can be considered a best friend if it wasnt for the attraction. i think ur best friend is someone who u can tell anything to and someone who u no will be real to u. but u have no feelings for them other then "you're like family to me". i think that u and ur person could actually have a good relationship as long as yall dont let other interfere

Do you believe that 'best friends' would be good in a relationship? by MelanieFalls

i think it depends on how long u've been "best friends". the relationship may be to friendly and the lack of attraction may ruin things. at the same time, the comfort may be valued and it could last. but, u also need to really think about whether yall are "best friends" or not

How would you describe your first love and why? and how did it end? by MelanieFalls

i guess i would describe it as comfortable. it was like over time we became best friends. thats part of the reason we broke up. plus, he moved to georgia and long distance just doesnt work

do u think u look good naked?

ur a prime example of the stereotypical ignorance placed on black people (unless ur white then this wud be very awkward and u shud disregard this comment)

I love you? (It's a stetment, with a question mark. lol) by HarMoney

lol i love u too twin ♥

Unwritten (part two)

i guess it wasnt meant to be
my moment of clarity was taken from me.
or maybe...
maybe i need to start a-fresh...a-new
(double meaning)
i wish you understood...
but i cant do it! i just cant!
and its all because of YOU
but who are u exactly
why have u caused me so much trouble
i feel like im nice to everyone
like im constantly working to make everyone happy
i could be mad at you and you wouldnt know
i could hate u oh-so-much and u wouldnt know either
because i dont let you
and i dont no why
does that make me fake?
the true meaning of this...
if u found out would be still b friends
if u found out then i think u would rlly no me
but my supposed bestfriends dont no me
and i dont blame you...i dont let u
or do they?
am i underestimating u?
constantly worrying?
am i insecure?
constantly questioning myself?
do i lack the confidence i once thought i had?
tell me something...have you ever seen me cry?
and not for someone else but for me?
i dont think i've ever done that...
cried outta anger, cried outta pain
for myself
what does this truly mean?
some might say this is rlly deep..but is it rlly?
the me i keep hidden...why do i do that?
someone once asked how could anyone not love me
why this is bother me so much
emotions...rollercoasters.

..
bestfriend where are u?!
i rlly think im brain is screwed up
i laugh when i rlly want to scream
i smile when i rlly want to cry
happy moments...why cant u last long?!
why is my joy always taken away?
what is wrong with me?
why am i not content with wat i have?
i long for YOU...why deny me?
you...this person who i should vent to...
WHERE ARE YOU?
even now...i feel but i dont
why?
my inspiration...once told me not to define myself...its not needed
im confused...
It didnt work...my moment of clarity hasnt come.
but i can wait...but in fear
i fear your opinion, your reactions, your whispers
what was once unwritten is shared with the world
omg...i have done it!
i've given you a part of me
please dont ruin it...please

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Random Question of the Week

Why ponder on things that you fear most, constantly bringing them into your life?

i dont get it (fear that is)
the thing we fear the most is the thing we think about most
therefore, we are constantly fearing

some may say that im wrong, that this doesnt apply to them
but the moment they start thinking about it they join the group
the group who fear

i guess that as long as we find something else to ponder on that we wont ponder on fear so much
but then, what if??

what if your new source of thinking is something u deeply desire
and then your consumed by this desire, constantly thinking of alternatives
wishing for this and that, dreaming of this and that

then u eventually fear that this desire will not be claimed for yourself
(that is, if your desire requires think to achieve)
[and most desires do]

i guess the only way to survive such questioning is just live with it
or better yet, not question at all

maybe the complexity of our thoughts werent meant to be complex
maybe by pondering we bring struggle and fear onto ourselves

either way we live our lives to try to be the best we can be
and we take time to forget issues and questions to enjoy ourselves

it is time for me to stop questioning

Sleep...

i wanna sleep so bad...

so tired...[yet so hyper, thank yhu cake]

sleep....

leave me be....[haha, floetry]

will yhu???!!!

get OUT!!!!!!!

wat do i see???!!! i see me [more floetry] having a nice dream [kinda floetry, u no wat forget it]

arrrrggggg......

=] im soooo happy

(u had better acknowledge the use of sarcasm)

hjgfcxm (random...random....hehe)

so sleepy....

yall really need to leave me....

ha, this is a poem

NOT!!!!!!!!!

ok, im reaLLY bored [accidently caps, pero me gusta mucho]

Ram.Skull

NITE!!!!

finally...

til next time

[leave the paper]

chow y goce

*please note: forced against my will to blog by annoying sister who wont let me be

inspired by current happenings

Crystal and Her Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad DAY

Hey Hey Bloggers

Guess how my day was today.

If u cant then ur a dum-ass (sorri to break the truth to u da hard way)

anywho,
THE FOLLOWING EVENTS WILL HELP TO CLARIFY UR THOUGHTS .&&. SUCH STUFF:

1. woke up late (it was a 2-hour delay) (dont ask how it was possible cuz i dont no)
2. had to walk to school
3. fell on ice
4. busted my tooshie
5. had others fall on me
6. arrived to school late
7. forgot my id at home
8. had to limp up the stairs to get one
9. had to endure a 30 min lecture
10. had to limp back down the stairs
11. had to endure "the look"
12. had to limp to my locker
13. had to endure "the look" again
14. fell off of the locker room bench
15. got bbq sauce in my eye
16. fell off the bench again
17. was late to class
18. was late to class again
19. endured boredom

well at least im a survivor

plus, there were some gooods in my day

• laughs
• hugs
• good news
• academic SUCCESS

so, now, how was ur day

(ps- i really dont care) =]

luv ya, BYE!!!

Passion

I want to travel. I wish to see the world from different views and aspects. I want to experience all of the beauty that God has provided us on this planet.

Dancing is my life. My floetry just comes to me. I love the challenge of learning new routines. I gain a thrill in the creation of my own.

Modeling...is okay. I mean, yeah it can be fun. If I stick to it, I can accomplish my passion of travel. BUT...annoying, stuck-up girls, crazy managers, and hectic photographers. Is it really worth it???


Fresh inspiration
fertilizes the Future’s
found in cool waters
Now I’ve held back a wealth of shit.
I think I’m gonna choke.
I’m standing in the shadows with the words stuck in my throat.

The Current State of the Union

In

• crazi dances
• words that make you sound smart
• ghetto names
• bestfriends
  

Out

• dance routines
• weird words
• all-american names
• boyfriends

*Based on the opinion of Nemi.&&.Melzz

Until next time

My Beginning

Hey people, welcome to my beginning. My name is Crystal and i'm just now learning who i am. You will travel with me along my journey and help find who i really am. I like to think that i was created for a special purpose and i will find out what that purpose is. I enjoy outlandish (weird) items. I try to express my creativity in all things that i do. Now that you've learned a little about me, check back weekly (or whenever i feeling like "letting loose" hehe melzz) for updates.

Interesting aka weird words of the day:

• Selcouth
• Phenakism
• Nihilarian
• Agonous
• Vehement
• Morose
• Abditive
• Outlandish
  

Plus Tard (later)